I Want To See It Too

I would like to be honest about something but I worry about coming off ungrateful..

I don't really feel as "gifted" as some people have told me that I am lately. Sometimes I think that I am accepting kind words for things that I don't really see in myself. I have known no other way than having my eye sight so it doesn't seem to be that amazing to me with how I take pictures.

I want to share my story but sometimes I don't feel like I have the right to feel "extraordinary" for it. It means the world to me when someone tells me that they think that I am special but for some reason and I think it is my low self esteem but I just don't feel it in myself. I want to be more confident so that these good times that I have been having will feel real and well deserved to me. I Want To See It Too.

Thank you so very, very much to everyone who has ever said anything nice to me and although it may not seem real to me today, I know that one day, one day soon it will.

 

Thankful For You

Justin and I have been together for almost 14 years now and he has always been there for me. When my eyes are not good enough to see his are always there. Justin is the one who has brought me to the places that I have captured and he is the one who sets the controls on my camera when they are too small for me to see. Justin will always smile when I ask him to, he will ask our daughter Lily to look at me when I go to take her picture, he will stop, move over a bit and do almost anything that I ask of him because he knows that I see a special moment. Justin supports me, he is there for me and most of all he loves me. For that I am forever thankful.

 

 

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I am HandiCapable!

My eye disease, my handicap makes taking pictures harder for me but I will never let that stop me from doing what I love to do.

However I do get a little discouraged because I know that if I could see better than I could set the controls my camera which would make it easier to get the pictures that I am trying to get. I am very lucky to have my boyfriend Justin in my life. He will help me in low light situations and set my camera for me. Thanks Justin!

Right now I leave my camera on automatic with no flash. I take many pictures at once and then sort through them when I download them to my computer. It is usually over 1,000 pictures every time.

Sometimes it can also be  disappointing because I had thought certain pictures were clear when I took them and they seemed clear on my camera screen but they weren't. It is kinda like destroying a picture you really liked. There is only so much I can do in Photo shop to make a picture look clearer and sometimes I just have to let them go. And oh boy that gets hard for me sometimes.

Although it can be frustrating, the happiness I feel from getting the pictures that I wanted over rules all of that frustration. If you have good eye sight then I think that you should cherish it but if you do not, still cherish it. I cherish the fact that I can take pictures and can look at them afterwards. I may not be able to see the small details or the clarity as well as most but I can still see what I was trying to capture.

I would like to be open about my condition and to become more confident in my skills. But to also realize that somethings are going to be frustrating and that is OK. I have to focus on the positive, happy aspects of things in order to achieve my dreams. So I am happy to have my eyes the way they are because If I didn't, I would not be where I am today, happy.

The grass doesn't always have to be greener on the other side. It can be  the perfect shade for you if you make it be.